CD1

Fucking hate this.

Hhmmm...

I can't recall exactly when my last period started, around the 6th of June I'm guessing. It was painful and heavy on the 8th of June, so it makes sense to me that it had started two days beforehand.

Then on CD26 & 27 I got positive OPK's, so had intercourse in the hope that we might be lucky to conceive.

On CD32 or roughly 6DPO I found some dark red spotting which at first I thought was my period starting. I continued to have light spotting for two more days then it stopped.

Today is approx CD37, 10 or 11DPO and I have no idea what's happening, no cramps, no soreness anywhere in my body, and a negative pregnancy test to finish it off just nicely :-( But the positive is that my temperature is up around 37.1 so I'm considering that a good thing.

Herbs

Finally got to see a naturopath yesterday, so started my herbal medicine today. I had forgotten how tasty the stuff is. Bluergh...

Also taking a supplement to help with oestrogen detoxification as I suffer from an excess of oestrogen in my body because of PCOS. The product is called Meta I-3-C, the base ingredient being Indol-3-Carbinol. In my search for information I discovered that some cancer patients also use I-3-C to inhibit cancer cells. Some types of cancer feed off oestrogen so the I-3-C helps to break down the oestrogen before it can be taken up by the cancer cells.

2

Number of days til Naturopath and counselling appointments. Thank goodness.

24

Number of days til FS appointment. Not going fast enough.

I know this is a boring blog

It's just that the last two weeks have been especially horrific, I am just not dealing with my fertility issues at all. All day long I am thinking of pregnancy and babies, sometimes I feel a bit hopeful but the rest of the time I feel nothing but despair and a deep aching feeling, and this fear that it's never going to happen.

Why is it that I keep torturing myself by looking at photos of pregnant bellies? I will sit at my computer for hours looking at the belly pics thread on the forum I visit almost daily. It aches so much to see all those beautiful blossoming tummies, knowing that there are tiny little people baking away inside. I want one of those tummies so much.......

Change of plan with the naturopath.

I have cancelled the appointment for 31st July because I have found a different naturopath who can see me on the 8th, next Tuesday. Three weeks earlier :-D

I am glad I found this one, she is the one I was thinking of calling originally as she specialises in women's health. I really can't wait to meet her, it will be good.

It gets worse

I have been informed that the Endometriosis is actually worse than I was initially told. My gyno described it as being "peppered about" my insides, scattered around and difficult to remove. So it was all left there and it has been upgraded from "a small amount of endo on one ovary" to "mild Endometriosis".

It now explains why my period pains have been so much worse over the last 3yrs. And now it seems that we will likely skip IUI and go straight onto IVF. According to the gyno anyway.

I have made two appointments for the end of June, shame I couldn't get in any earlier but it could have been an even longer wait which would have made me feel even worse:

30th July - I see the fertility specialist in Ballarat who I first met back in April
31st July - I will see a naturopath who has apparently had very good success with women's reproductive issues.