Wednesday, November 12, 2008


I know I said I wasn't going to post on this blog anymore but today I realised that I should be 17 weeks pregnant by now. It is the most awful feeling knowing that I am not carrying my baby anymore, I miss him more than words can say. And it's even harder knowing of women who are around the same gestation, finding out that they have baby bumps showing or that they are shopping for cots and other furniture for their babies.

Life is just fucked up, I don't know what I did to deserve this pain, but I would do anything to atone for it just so I could have a baby with my husband.