Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Busy little bee

I have been absolutely flat out these last few weeks, having garage sales, selling stuff on eBay, catching up with friends etc. And stressing about Andrew ever since he got headbutted by a cow and is suffering significant concussion.

So I haven't really had much time to reflect on the sadness and grief although I still have my moments.

I can't wait to get back to the UK, although that is still weeks away yet. I just want to move on to the next chapter of my life.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Mothers' Day

Another one gone by, another day of sadness and disappointment. I hate this.

The fact that nobody acknowledged my losses or the fact that I AM a mother really hurts.

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Ask and it is given

Today I went back to the shop where I had the psychic reading/healing last week, as I wanted to find out about meditation classes. Michelle, the owner of the shop, was kind enough to offer to do some Reiki on me at no cost! How nice is that? So I have a session booked for Thursday 14th of May at 10am, she will do some Reiki then we'll find a good meditation group for me to slot into. There is a workshop coming up at the end of May which sounds really lovely, I feel like I need to be in a group with other women and this one sounds perfect.

My throat is feeling much better, though now I have a bit of a cough. I've been popping some Garlic, vit C and horseradish tablets, they are super strong and have an unfortunate smelly side effect - but I think they are boosting my immune system to fight this infection!

Will update after the weekend once the garage sale is out of the way.

Monday, May 4, 2009


I've had a sore throat for three days now, I don't think it's swine flu though! No other symptoms, just a sore throat and a bit of a cough.

Just returned from a road trip to Vic, totallying 2500km in 5 days. I had to take some stuff down to Warrnambool and put it into storage, plus sort all the stuff already in storage to have some of it sent to Sydney. The rest of the stuff (including what I took down) will be sent to the UK.

The due date for Baby J has passed. 24th of April. It was hard, very hard. I have named him Joshua on his due date, it is only fitting that I give him a name on the day he should have been born.

Today also marks one year since I lost the third pregnancy. So many anniversaries, none of them happy ones.

My visa application is done and paid for, I just need to attend an interview in at the British Consulate in Sydney. It's Andrew's birthday in just over a month so I'd like to be back for that, I hope I can make that happen but it all depends on how long the visa processing takes.

So much done, still so much left to do. I am having a garage sale this Saturday, then another one the following Saturday. It would all have been done in one day but for some incompetent removalists who "forgot" about the 3rd container of furniture I needed. So they are bringing that up from Vic at no cost. Dipsticks!

I had a healing/psychic reading session a few days ago, it was really emotional for me, I felt like I had purged all this anger and pain that had been clouding me for so long. I will post details about that another day. But it was a good experience, affirmed alot of things for me, and I walked out with a renewed hope and this sense that a big weight has been lifted.