So much anguish, can't stop crying, can't stop thinking about my precious little baby curled up in my hand, such a fragile little soul taken from me far too soon.

What I can't comprehend is that I saw my baby being so active on the ultrasound that day, then no more than 10 hours later there was no warning, it was expelled from my body with such force that the umbilical cord broke.

It's hard enough dealing with the emotions and memories, but the tenderness of my breasts and the cramps in my tummy are cruel reminders of what I no longer have. The ache in my heart is unbearable, someone please tell me how to make the pain go away.