Wow... it has been ages since I last posted....
Not much has changed since then. I'm still not pregnant, still no closer to my dream.
Actually, I gave up the notion for a while, it was all just too much to bear. I have been through absolute personal hell these last few months. I never stop grieving for my babies. In fact, one of them would have had her 1st birthday last month. The other one would be turning 1 in two weeks' time if she'd survived.
I am booked in to see a FS on 14th April but I'm so fucking scared. Really scared. Not just about the cost but about the procedures and drugs and the toll it might have on me.