Not sure what I want anymore... not sure if a baby is on my agenda... I just don't think I can go on hoping when everything is so shithouse and all the odds are stacked against me.
It's so painful to witness all the ladies in my support groups leaving and moving on because they are pregnant. Of course they deserve to be happy and to celebrate their achievements, but it is such a bitter pill to swallow.
Infertility is a very isolating, terrifying experience. The sickness in my stomach is indescribable.