Still trying to process and make sense of everything. Just can't fathom why it keeps happening, what stone hasn't been turned over yet, what are we missing?

I received something in the post this morning from Cytogenetic Services, it was a letter and a Medicare assignment form that I needed to sign so that chromosome testing can be done on our little baby. The wording of the letter was so clinical and cold:

"Dear Patient

Your doctor recently sent a specimen to this laboratory for testing and has asked that we bulk bill the charge for this test directly to Medicare."

A SPECIMEN.

My baby is not a fucking specimen, it is a BABY. OUR BABY. It was an amazing little life force who was cruelly ripped away from us. Not a specimen.