I am jealous. I can't deny it.

There is this energy between pregnant women that a non-pregnant woman, like me, just doesn't understand. I can't make a connection with that energy until I am well and truly pregnant. Maybe it's just that they are expecting babies and it's all the impending excitement, being able to share some kind of womanly bonding... I dunno... I'm not making sense really. It's just so hard to be outside of that circle, listening, reading, watching. Waiting.